Dream can be changed! (English)

Kept focusing on achieving the dream, but now feeling like it is hard to keep doing it… Has it been become something SHOULD to do so? Of course, it is wonderful to work on toward achieving the dream straightly and I want you to feel proud such yourself. However, if your feeling became something uncomfortable or depressed to focusing on it, please try to pause a little. I’m happy if my story would make you aware of something!

I had a period aiming to become a cabin crew for somewhere Middle East airline company after university graduation started working in society and reevaluating my own career.

I could not find any job that willing to be or desire to be since new graduate job hunting period, however, Cabin Crew became the first one that I could feel interested in it as a job. Actually, I haven’t thought cabin crew as a job suit for me when I was a student, but gradually grew bigger and bigger my mind willing to see the world, then the job became my dream job. I spent all my time and money for taking classes at airline schools to prepare for English interview and grooming unique for cabin crew.

As starting to aim to be cabin crew, friends introduced me more and more information related to the recruitment or news, and their friends who are cabin crews. I really appreciated for being bigger and bigger my connection around cabin crew because of their supports. And the fact made me motivated more.

This is a scrunchie, a present from my Taiwanese friend who is an Emirates cabin crew. She gave me when she worked on a Japan flight from Dubai. I never forget the feeling of delight and appreciation when she said the scrunchie was same as real cabin crew of Emirates.

Even my feeling was motivated, soon I faced on the problem that I barely could not reach the Middle Eastern airline companies’ requirement of height and arm reach (with standing on tiptoes). But I did not want to give up so easily, I went to flying yoga (or aerial yoga), swimming, Chiropractic to stretch up the height etc. I used everything that I could use. Finally, I could get the maximum 3cm more height and my right arm became enough length to reach the requirement height. However, only my left arm could not reach it; the width between my nail and the line was like less than one piece of paper.

The assessment of Emirates in Japan is usually held by the mediator airline school, so (even it is rumor but) the requirement level is getting higher including the requirement height. Anyway, as it was too highly competitive document screening of Emirates in Japan truly, I began to consider going to Western countries to participate in “Open Day” which was the walk-in style assessment without document screening.

My next consideration became which country I should go and when should be the best timing for me… My negative minds appeared, “I am not enough to go” “It would be waste of time if I could not make it” and those thoughts made me suffered.

At last, I chose to go to Copenhagen in the end of May!  I made the decision in the beginning of May. Yes, that was crazy sudden decision for me that I flew there 3 weeks after. Thanks to my friends’ encourage messages I could make weaker my negative minds. Also, at first my parents got upset with harmful words for me at that time, but finally they agreed and encouraged me to go. Those supports made me able to fly. (The picture is Copenhagen Marriott Hotel where the Open Day was held.)

As it was a trip needed a lot of money because of the weaker JP YEN, I put many reasons and purposes on the trip, such as meeting up with my university friend moved to Denmark, and my sisterhood and respectful mentor who happened to stay in Copenhagen only in that May.

I could finally believe that the trip would be the greatest trip ever, even if I passed the assessment or not, because at least I would be able to meet with people whom could not meet if I had not leave Japan. I could tell the trip would be the wonderful memory, then I flew by myself for the first time, with fulfilled mind.

(In addition, there was another miracle occurred that matched the day off of my Emirates cabin crew friend who gave me the scrunchie before, so that we could meet in Dubai for a few days!)

The result of the Open Day was… Failed. I have heard that assessment was to get some Danish crews after that (Every assessment has the mission only known by the recruiter).

This photo is my favorite one. I took the photo after the assessment; after came back to my hotel room totally absent-minded and jumped into my bed, then I realized that the sky was so beautiful with jet cloud. So soon I took the picture.

At the assessment, I could participate group work with international applicants from Denmark, Thailand, Germany, Ethiopia, Iraq, Egypt and China. The time with them was so enjoyable and precious experience for me. They were all gentle people and one of them is still connecting as a friend.

After the adventure trip, even I had been trying as much effort as possible, only my left arm could not reach the requirement height at all to the end. And finally I felt “Maybe my body refuses the job…?” starting to consider whether I should give up or not. Giving up is so easy action but as think about it more and more faces comes up in my mind, my family, friends, teachers of airline school and so on. At the same time, I could realize that somehow without knowing it, although my mind started with filling excitement to be a cabin crew, gradually the mind had been changed “I should live up to their expectations!” with pressure.　After that, coincidently I met another Human Resource job using English, and that made me more confused to consider about my future giving up to be a cabin crew.

The typhoon was blowing in my head, but suddenly I became aware that the biggest reason for having started to be a cabin crew was, while willing to be a life career coach utilizing learning of certificate such as career consultant, but firstly I wanted to spread my perspective by visiting lots of different countries. Then, new words came up in my mind, “Well… Might it be really okay to skip being a cabin crew to the goal like taking shortcut? And YES I can skip it!” After the words ringing inside my head, somehow I could release the obsession really easily.

I really appreciate for the fact that able to be in good health condition for my challenge, because of the support of parents, friends and people who related to my adventure. Also at the same time, I could learn the most important thing is not “how they feel to my action” but “how I feel myself to my action” and being carefully to feel whether I can feel excitement or not, or I am comfortable or not, then as necessary I need to back on track.